Phoenix Fire
Thin ice gives back the sky
mild sun turns the morning air
the exact color
of one part joy
one part hope
and two parts serenity
before the redbud
shows anything but gray
while the dogwood is still
only making plans
with molten wings
to the extent
anyone appeals to cat ladies
I appeal to cat ladies
my x-ray vision says
you are a cat lady in training
your x-ray vision sees
the star of my invisible tear
so you and Charlie are going
to heal each other
and me
yeah I'll bet
leave me out of this
no matter what
you and Charlie and I
and his boyfriend might
​
do to each other
all at once
random mutual reassembly
can't fix anything
if I had anything
to give I would trade it
for the ferocity
of the wolverine
or the toughness
of the snowdrop
a string of red traffic lights
over Mass Ave
phoenix fire in the night
the heat and chill of that fire
reconstitute my waxen wings
and I'm flying down its throat
Brian Jerrold Koester is a Pushcart Prize nominee and a Best of the Net Anthology nominee. His collection is titled What Keeps Me Awake (Silver Bow Publishing) and his chapbook is called Bossa Nova (River Glass Books). His work has appeared in Agni, Streetlight Magazine, Delmarva Review, Right Hand Pointing, Louisiana Literature, and elsewhere. He lives in Lexington, Massachusetts and has been a freelance cellist.