is how my father tells me he loves me, sometimes during his smoke break
and by ‘smoke break’ i mean the bits of time between his smokes and i wonder
if he knows defenestrate is a word for to throw oneself out of a window;
i wonder if he suspects the Therapy Money goes to my Schizophrenia Lite,
but at least i get the money;
i’m low like the year Mom switched from “spoiled brat” to “bitch”